INNER MONOLOGUE 

5.9.26 Is he your oldest? Is he your only? Do you only have one? Innocent questions that catapult me Into immense pride and simultaneous grief Only Yes my only My one The possibility of more Lost to time wasted Dreams deferred Turned to ash as time ticks on When did the moment happen to make this the only Was it due to my silence Declined opportunity Six more months to see if it would get better Only one more thing to grieve Only one Responsible Everything Everyday The only o

3.2025 If I was you In your position I pray I’d be different We never know how we will respond But I pray I wouldn’t be like you If I was you I hope I would show up To everything Be grateful for any time Put my own effort in To getting my own access to information If I was you I would say I’m sorry To me And to him For all of the lies you’ve spun The manipulation wielded For the emotional and psychological Abuse We’ve been subjected to If I was you I would be thankful For all

8.24.24 Both can hinge on Waiting Anticipating Expecting Depending on the outcome Desired or uninvited yet unavoidable Both demand a...

5.10.24 The days are long and the years are short Everyone who has been here has some words of wisdom Some knowing look, pat on the arm,...

4.1.23 How do you know which to believe When words and actions conflict Behavior is a language all it’s own Vocalizations may be easier...

12.16.22 Overwhelming, unnerving, alienating Enveloping-body, mind, spirit Depleting-energy, fuel, creativity Senses deflated, one...

11.4.21 You seem to be bothered by the fact that your actions Which took so little thought consume mine I need to know I alone fill yours...

12.30.23 One more day Different than a birthday or anniversary The only instance where we all collectively Old and young Acknowledge time...

12.7.23 A year and a half of a feeling restored After years of dormancy Buried but lying in wait Revived by a different trauma...

1.14.23 So tired of hoping Waiting, reaching, wanting To not break Again To know that The hurt The repeated sting Is good It’s shows even...

7.12.23 Life can be contradicting We fight what we desire versus what we assume our limits to be Physically, mentally, spiritually,...

7.9.21 You asked what I meant when I said: I’m here... I’m here for you. I’m working on me so I am happy with my trajectory. I’m here for...

5.18.23 What would be 208 now 24 removed allowed for 12 anew. Markers denote marching on the line of time. What once was an ebb and flow,...

6.15.21 Six letters leaving countless questions unanswered in their wake; or answers that I am broken by the weight of. Six letters,...

7.23.16 Everybody has some. Some more the others. Some hide theirs well. Some keep theirs tightly sealed in individually labeled...

Such a small word for an expansive, weighted feeling of a void, that envelopes my current existence. Wounded An injury internal. Semi...

6.27.23 We acquire it without consent Without understanding it’s gravity What will you do with it Your predetermined Yet undisclosed...

12.24.22 Why does hope always hurt? Does it just for me? Is hope itself the spear that inflicts the wounds? Is it me? Am I voluntarily...

1.1.23 Cut outs Appearance easily adaptable The look appealing on the surface of their medium Though the substance is the same Thin,...